Me, The Woman

I have a confession:  I can’t say “no”– or at least I find it hard.  I guess it’s the sanguine part of me that makes me want to please everybody, and having to sacrifice a lot of other things for the sake of friends have become quite a burden lately.

I am a ghost writer for other bloggers who happen to be my closest friends online.  My ghostwriting dates back to late 2009 when I started to do writing jobs just for one friend and then eventually more and more people wanted my “services.”

Now, writing for older bloggers is a compliment.  I like the fact that I also earn for something that I love doing, and at the same time, I would be of help.  If I were to sum up my total income for ghostwriting last year, I believe I would be so pleasantly surprised at the figures I will see.  But that, I have yet to do.

Anyways, I have been suffering from some kind of depression lately.  I have been working hard ’til the wee hours in the morning, and I kept accepting assignments.  I was unstoppable… and then I would find myself so tired the last words I would mutter before I shut my eyes would be, “God, I am so tired. I am so tired.”

Hubby became so concerned, he said I should learn to say “no”.  I promised I would, but when I see my friends online asking for my help, I couldn’t help it.  I find myself saying “yes” again… and so the pattern continues.

But in the end, I am so grateful that my friends understood when I told them I could not do it on a particular day,  and that I would need to rest, etc.  At least today I spent the whole day with my family without feeling guilty that I promised my friends I could do their articles and I am not doing anything about it, actually.

Learning to say “no” is not easy for me, but I have to do that, if I  care enough for my family or for myself.  I also learned that my friends are the most understanding people there are– and like me, they also want to stay healthy and serve their families as well. It’s just a matter of being honest on my part.